"I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till i drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion."

"We travel because we need to, because distance and difference are the secret tonic of creativity. When we get home, home is still the same. But something in our mind has been changed, and that changes everything."

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”

Here’s a quick one. My mind and heart are still in Thailand. That has to be the highlight of my studying abroad program. I can type all day about my adventures there, but I’m not in the mood. In fact, upon getting back, the smiles and joys from Thailand quickly withered away once we landed in Incheon. Subway entry problems, mean old Korean men, and most of all, the cold weather. I stepped back into the superficial city world.

This is an impulsive post, which will probably be full of complaints and bitterness. My eyes hurt, my head hurts, and I just want this week to be over so I can settle down, study for finals, and be rid of that. Then that’ll give me a few days to enjoy the last of Seoul.

Home? Am I ready to go home? Yes, but I’m scared I won’t be ready. Today made me realize that I am not ready at all. I thought I was, but saying it is one thing, actually applying the things I say and doing it is another story. So far, I give myself a huge F on that part.

This photo = my studying abroad experience in Korea. Time to analyze and interpret what that means. Good luck!

Keeping a blog is difficult to do. Writing your thoughts for hundreds to see is a bit overwhelming. Then again, those who read it are curious and they choose to read it. But the feeling is still uneasy for me. I’ve been through a lot here in Korea but I haven’t documented it all in this blog. I apologize? There are times when I just want to type everything out, and I stop and just can’t imagine sharing my intimate details with the world. But anyways, I respect those who can do that. I wish I could.

Anyways, this quick update will make up for all the unwritten posts. 4 weeks remain in my little adventure. Woosh, I was going to write something “philosophical and deep” but I can’t put them into words. Most of my personal thoughts have been spoken to others. I really loved talking to Emily (shout out to you!) though I know she doesn’t read this because she’s avoiding Facebook! But I had a long great random conversation with her two or three nights ago, and it felt great to reflect on our experience and simply talk openly.

I’ve been to 제주도. Amazing. I’ll need to post photos of that trip soon. I’m a few hours from heading to 태국! Nervous more than anything.

Oh yeah, and I met T.O.P. and G-Dragon. Mission accomplished :)

I probably still haven’t completely adapted to the world,” I said after giving it some thought. “I don’t know, I feel like this isn’t the real world. The people, the scene: they just don’t seem real to me.”

(via whatgoesupcomesdown)

Seoul Forest Park.

“Take all that you have,
and turn it into something you were missing,
somebody threw that brick,
and shattered all your plans.”

Brand New, how I miss you.